Why do kids have to tattle?? Really?? Drives me insane! Like they need help getting into trouble...but they still come out and tattle. I can hear them laughing, but as soon as something happens Madison will tell on Makayla. Never fails.

Today was a good day with the kids for the most part. They started to not listen to me around dinner time. Go figure. Other than that I was having an off day...feelings of abandonment and such because the only 2 friends I have managed to make are busy, which doesn't bother me at all. I'm use to being alone, they both did it at about the same time. I will get over it and move on. Hopefully make a new friend or something I don't know.

One just found out she is pregnant and has been hanging out with another of the wives. The other's hubby came home from training and they are going to have a baby in October. It sucks being the older person and having 2 kids. It's not as easy to go do things. I really wish I had someone that I could send the girls to for the weekend. I really miss that option. I never used it much, but when I did it helped...and right now all I want to do is cry. :(

I'm going to go soon and register them with the Child Youth Services. I will get 16 hours of free child care, but can only take it in 4 hour blocks. Plus they have hourly that's $2 an hour per child. Along with sports that Maddie can do. I just really miss Jeremy. I hate the nights. It's never bad during the day but at night...it really sucks.

I finally got my donut of misery to work! We are 7% done...have a long long way to go...Please let November get here soon! I really want to go home. I miss my mom!

Sucky day.

Madison's first day of school was today. I can not believe my baby is in Kindergarten...makes me wonder how my own mom feels with a 26 year old baby and 2 grandkids. Maddie loved it though. We got there late because of traffic and I had to walk her in and didn't get a kiss or hug bye again. Hopefully she continues to enjoy school. Makayla cried when we walked out of school, she wanted sissy.

Today was a day that I really missed Jeremy. I wish he could have been here her first day of school. He missed preK last year too. I'm not looking forwards to the holidays this year again, since he wasn't around at Thanksgiving last year either, or our anniversary. 2 years in a row missing major things sucks. But, we will survive. I'm trying to stay stronger this time than I was the last time. I know I will have my down days, but I'm doing everything I can to make sure I have up days. This deployment WILL NOT GET ME DOWN!

The kids were into everything imaginable today. Rice, bread crumbs, laundry soap, cat food, TV trays...you name it they were into it. They did a terrible job of listening to me too. I wish I had family here to help me with them. I feel bad asking the few (2) friends that I have made to take the girls off my hands. They have their own things going on. One's husband is deployed with mine and found out that she is pregnant, and the other one is going to have a baby in 2 months.

Things will get better. Once the school routine sets in....It has to get better right? Plus it will all start going by faster. He's been gone almost a month (which I can't believe it's been that long already) and in November we will go home for a month and a half...then a few months later he will hopefully be able to take R&R...then the deployment will be done. They say the second half goes by faster than the first half. I hope it's true.

My plan for tomorrow is to work out and get the house cleaned. I might run my shampooer to the repair shop to get the cord fixed so I can shampoo the carpet...it really needs it! It's driving me insane, all these little spots and stains on the carpet from a dog, cat, my 2 kids and the 3 that I baby sit. UGH!

Well I'm off to bed! Tomorrow is a new day and WILL BE BETTER THAN TODAY!!!


I am so proud of him. Words will never ever describe just how my heart feels at this moment. It could just burst with love for my soldier. I miss him so much! I wish I could have been there to watch him get pinned. Would have been great, but one day I know I will be able to.

I know I complain about him being gone, or whatever...but there are some people that do nothing BUT complain. OMG. I liked a page on facebook and it's nothing but depressing things. Complaining about things that is COMMON sense. Things that EVERYONE knows before they join the Army. It just drives me insane the things they find to moan and groan about. Especially the people that their husbands are going to be gone a week or 2. HOLY COW. I would take a week or two every other 2 weeks than a year straight.

But see...I knew this was a possibility, I KNEW what we were signing up for. I knew it would be difficult, I knew there would be times where we were separated. In this day of age, how can you go into this SO blind. There are a million websites out there with people talking about the life they are in. There are so many people you can talk to and find out what they have gone through. Seriously?

Sorry, it just drives me insane. People really need to get a clue.

Ok, done with that. Maddie starts school tomorrow! My baby is getting so big. :( I bought her pants and shirts from the GIRLS section at the store...not the baby section. :( But her outfit she has picked out is so cute. Will post pictures...even though I don't think anyone reads this. LOL.

Well, it's been about three months since I posted last. Where to start.

We have a nice house and are all settled in! :)

About a month ago my hubby deployed... :( Sucks. As of August 3rd he's been in for a year! But, of that year we have only been together for 5 months :( Really stinks, but we knew this is something that we would have to deal with. We were as prepared for the lack of time as we possibly could have been. I made sure after his 6 months of BCT and AIT that I kept my mind set as him not being there to do things for me. That way when he left it wasn't a total "OMG he's gone and I have no one to do such and such".

So far this has been a crappy time. I baby sit the devils spawn...the oldest boy decided to take a lighter and burn things in my daughters' room (that was week 1) then today he decided to play with a gas can I had out. I mowed the lawn and when I came back out I seen wet spots on the ground and on the rubber piece on the back on the mower.

Not to mention both girls are pushing me! Yesterday Maddie was AMAZING. She has been doing laundry for a few days (even washes only 5 things because she can't find anything else...I told her to wait until it's full), then she decided to clean the litter box, take the trash bag out of the trash can and put it by the door, and she also moved the dog cage and swept up the spilled dog food. But today....OMG. Terrible! Like worse than ever type of terrible. I baby sat and none of the 5 kids would listen, then after they left MY kids still wouldn't listen. Keep getting into things that they KNOW they shouldn't. UGH!!!

Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I really need to start a journal of all the GOOD things that happen during the day. That way I can look back and go "It wasn't ALL bad"...Maybe tomorrow I will.

I also am trying to lose weight. I'm eating better (less junk and more healthy snacks), and doing more "exercises" than I normally did. Hopefully I will start seeing something soon. Would be great to be at my goal weight when he comes home for R&R.

Can not wait until he comes home! Miss him SO much! He is my soul mate, my world, the love of my life! Being away from him and not being able to see him is KILLING ME. I have seen him on Skype 3 times since he's left! UGH! :(

Well, I have been MIA for a while here. Lets see....Moved to Colorado Springs and have been getting settled and everything.

I love it here! OMG it is SO beautiful! You can see the mountains right out our front door! We are at the foot of the NORDAC mountain. I'm wondering why I didn't want to move sooner! Guess all things happen when they do for a reason. If we would have moved when Jeremy wanted to I probably wouldn't have been ready for it.

We have been to a bunch of the tourist places here. Garden of The Gods, Cheyenne Mountain Zoo (have a zoo pass), Cave of the Winds, Seven Falls, Manitou Cliff Dwellings. It's been fun. There are a few more places that we want to go to.

The girls are liking it here too. We have a fenced in back yard and they can go out and play when it's nice out and I don't have to be out there. Which when the cold weather hits it sucks for me because they are cooped up in the house driving me insane!

Maddie had an awesome birthday party a few weeks ago. We had a cook out with some people in the platoon so the wives could get to know each other. I met a few people that might be nice to hang out with.

I've been "looking" at jobs in the area. It would be GREAT if I could get an at home type job that didn't require selling things or making phone calls (or taking phone calls). So far everything I have seen wants you to pay them...Ummm I don't think so. I'm not going to PAY YOU in order to make money (unless it's a cheap price and it's a 100% legit company). Would be nice to have the extra money and not have to leave the girls for 8 hours a day.

I'm going to have to get busy cleaning the house. Jeremy's grandparents are coming out here at the end of June. That means I will AGAIN have to clean out "Jeremy's room" since he let his bags blow up in there after he got home. Ugh. I had it clean once.

I have a ton of projects I want to work on too...I have some stuff to start a purse out of ACU pants. Plus an apron for Maddie...but my sewing machine is in that room...I can't get to it lol.

Well I'm off...watching a movie and straightening up a bit. Fun fun fun.

Wow, so graduation was so amazing. I am so very very proud of my husband!! I was always proud of him, but now that he's officially an American Soldier...my pride is indescribable. His platoon won honors platoon, and his platoon leader got an award. It was so amazing to see him. He looks SO good. Lost a lot of weight! The Army has done him well so far.

It was nice to get to spend time with him, but it was way to short. He was gone 10 weeks and we got to see him for 4 days. Time went by WAY to fast.

On graduation day we found out that his MOS changed(rumors were going around about it). He is now 13 tango...he has yet to start AIT (which when he was 13s it was supposed to start Oct 19th). Now it is 10 weeks long instead of the 7 it use to be. Luckily he will be able to come home for Christmas! A whole 2 weeks!!! I will be going out to get him Dec 18th (I will probably leave the 17th) and we will be coming home. He wants me to go get him instead of flying him home. I have no problems with that. I just have to change the brakes, get the oil changed, and get 2 new tires. No problem...

I'm just so excited to see him again. I miss him so much. Thankfully in AIT they can talk everyday on the phone. We also got him a lap top that as soon as we get paid he can set up the internet and we can have video chats. Last weekend he got to use one of his room mates internet. It was very nice of him! I appreciate it and I know he did because he was having a hard time last weekend. He was use to being so busy he couldn't think, and just got let loose in AIT.

I can't wait to find out where we will be getting stationed. I'm ready for a new location, new people, new everything. I'm also ready for him to come home!!

It's ON!!

He passed his PT test!! WOOHOO!!!

Graduation is ON! YEY!!

I knew he could do it. I am so proud of him! He is such and amazing husband! I can not wait to see him!

2 WEEKS!!!!!!!

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