Tails to Toddlerhood

Well today was a good day. The girls were really good. We went to my grandparents house and had a family get together. My great aunt and uncle came from the west coast and I had never met them before. Some of my family think that my Great Grandma was hanging on in hopes that they would make it out here and that now that they came out she will let go. So it might not be to long, which is sad to think about. She's lived a full life though. Makes me sad to think about leaving now...

My grandparents live at the lake but today it wasn't warm enough to go swimming. Well, Mak was the one to get into the water anyway. LOL. She got in up to her knees then Maddie noticed and went in after her...so both my kids were wet. Go figure. Other than they they were great! I wish we had more days like this.

I need to find activities that we could do to keep them busy or something that way they are not just driving me crazy. I'm sure I can come up with something. Plus with school starting she should be busy. Plus we will get time apart during the week.

I think the time apart will make Jeremy and I a lot closer. He's started to apologise for the way he's treated me (which wasn't bad all the time) and for not helping me out more around the house and with the girls. He says that when he gets home he will prove how sorry he is. I told him I'm keeping all the letters as proof and will hold him to it. LOL.

1 month 16 days until I get to see him! I'm excited! I can't wait to see him. I miss him so much!

Ok, so here I am trying to blog again. There has been so much that has happened that I don't know where to start.

Jeremy left August 3rd. It's been hard on both of us. He misses the girls and I. We miss him. Maddie has adjusted better than I thought she would actually. I thought it would be crying and "I want daddy" every day. It's only been a few times, and she really wants him when she's getting into trouble. Mak, she never asks for him. One day last week I heard her saying "dad dad dad" and looked and she was walking around carrying one of his shirts. It was a heart breaking moment.

Me, well I'm doing the best I can. I'm strong for the girls during the day, but at night it's real hard. Some nights I cry and can't stop, but it's not sobbing hysterically it's just crying. We have never been away from each other for this long, or this far away. It's really hard being here with everything screaming "Jeremy". It's just going to take a while to get use to. I'm sure I will soon.

Maddie starts school the 9th. That should help the time go by fast. She will be in 3 day's this year, she's excited.

Mak is in her terrible 2's already. Every time I tell her to do something she says "no". UGH. I don't know what to do to get her to stop.

We were supposed to go to the Zoo tomorrow, but it's supposed to rain. Plus my aunt and uncle are coming in from the west coast to see my Great Grandma. She's not doing so well and a few people think that she was holding on just to see them again. I would rather go to the get together than the Zoo...it will always be there and I don't remember the last time I seen them.

I'm trying to lose weight before I go to Oklahoma to see Jeremy. He's going to lose so much during BCT he will look so different. I want to "change" and surprise him. LOL. I'm down almost 10 pounds...I have actually started working out the past few days. Hopefully I can keep it up. It's hard with no one to push me to do it. So far doing it at night is easier when both kids are in bed. We will see how this goes.

Well there is a run down of the past few months...